Jarlboro

i’m happy…..my frens know why i’m happy……hehe…. but, sometimes i confuse….and sometimes i dunno how to solve this kind problem……i always make her angry and disapointed…..and…..i dunno how to make her happy……i dun want to make her cried, but i did it. i dun wan to make her angry. but i did it. i dun wan to make her worried, but i did it too…….i always make mistake which i dun wan…..sometimes…. i feel so bad when she get angry…..i didnt meant to hurt my gal……for me, she is the one……she’s consider 1st and i wanna her to be the last…….she’s the gal i wanna live with forever……she’s the gal i neverever and will not meet again in my entire life……she’s my life…..she’s my soul, she’s my everything……i’m not a good one…..i’m lucky to have her, i think i’m the most luckiest in this world……but, i really make lots of mistake……..i dunno how to do……but…. the truth is….. i love her so much…….so so much……..

i was so busy in last few months. everything just too fast…… i almost can’t able to handle it…….. unfortunately…….. i still not did it well in the end. i felt so bad to be like that…… for spending my parents money, i still didn’t make it better…….. sometimes, i confuse that should i stop studying and juz working…. maybe i need to earn some money for my family…… i heard someone said something bad about me……. i’m now so called “liao kia”……… i dunno how many of my frens out there had the same view with this…. but…… why? i’m not rich…… not really spend a lot…… oh ya… maybe i’m spending a lot but, i just went few times clubbing in a year, few times karaoke, and i just spended it on my meal…… somemore…….. i wnt clubbing with my own money……. that’s my pocket money by being a basketball couch. but, should i feel happy to be called by that ‘liao kia’? because….. that’s mean i bcome rich……. hahhhaha… why?????? somebody? tell me?

i dunno why i must write it here….. i always told myself to be awake……. we wouldn’t be together, friend is the "line" for us in our relationship…… dun sleep joe….. dun dream joe….. you were not the one she want……  you are still not right now……… wouldn’t be happen it some others time in future…. joe…….wake up joe……concentrate on your studies….. nothing are much more important than my studies right now…….and,…….work hard to become a famous producer and sound engineer in Malaysia…….. that’s the dream you should always wish to ! you will find a better……